22 april 2012,,,,,, for you and my lovely dad......

dear god,,
Do you hear me god??
I want talk to you god,,,
God,,,
I have many question for you now!
Why god?
Why you do this to me god?
God,, why you make my father and my mom crying god?
God.. why you make my dad crying and make my dad broken heart god?
Why you not stop or change the situation god?
God,, you know love so much my dad, love my mom, and love my boyfriend too,,
But god,, why?? why you hate me? why you make my ay like this,,
Why god,,
Do you herar me god?
Why now you not answer me god?
God..
I love my dad much more,,
I love him wth all my life,,
But what, you change everything, you make me brbroke my dad heart,

its begining

yess today 08 april 2012..............

yesterday on 5 april its my bday and hes gave me a shoes,, yes high heels,,
but that not make me stop to crying,,
because i know today he must go to singapore,,
to work.. to training..
but i must be a big girl and stop crying....

but..
kemarin sebelum keberangkatanyya aku hanya bisa nangis,, nagis dan nagiss..
seperti anak kecil yang ga rela di tinggal pergi dan sekali lagi aku tau itu adalah sebuah resiko yang aku harus jalani...

dan sekali lagii.
aku ga pernah menyesal justru aku merasa sangat beruntung memiliki pria seperti dia,,
dya yang selalu bisa menenangkan aku dan selalu berlaku aadil paadaku..
ohh god ilove him..

dan semoga dya bisa semangaat training sayaang...
i love you
i'll be waiting you dear
i'll be waiting sampe you ask me to marry you
love you my seaman :*